bugs me and makes me think...

I'm sadish.... i guess... more bored i guess but... i have realized that people in upstate NY define going to the grocery store as an event. When I am in the grocery store, I get what I need and then I leave. I don't wander around aimlessly picking things up and putting them down, only to end up with a cart full of things I don't need and will probably throw out because they went bad. I see grocery shopping as an errand, not an event. I don't leisurely stroll down the aisle admiring the Hellman's mayonnaise or flavored pretzels. I find it sad, almost depressing. I miss the fast paced lifestyle of New York City. Also, I went to Wendy's because I was dragged there, not because I wanted it, but it was disgusting. I substituted my greasy engorged French fries with a baked potato with sour cream but didn't get the sour cream so I was screwed. Also my chicken club didn't have any bacon. Life sucks! Actually, I take that back... It's just not my day, but life rules!!!

early night inspiration

so i have decided to put myself out there... i updated my match.com profile... i messaged a random friend on facebook and I will go on craigs list when i re-enter civilization on the 26th of August and answer an ad. yay me! i'm watching broken english right now with parker posey. I love her! I dont want to say she has much talent but she does try hard and i have enjoyed most of her roles, even fay grim... brought me back to alias... r.i.p. (one of my favorite tv shows from the depreesed period of my life.) I was an odd 14 year old. I am looking foward to the fall and i think that is a good thing. I also thought of a number for the pregnancy project: a musical number taking place on 2 floors of a high school right above and below each other with a song mashup of 'breaking water' and umbrella.... it will be genius. I'm feeling yummy head to toe..... and my current song is "white horse" by some club peeps. holler back!

Caucasian one hit wonder Sparkles is looking to broaden her appeal by starring in a yet untiled cable channel made for television musical with a tentative title, "High School Pregnancy." It will be written, directed, and choreographed by consulting team, Stafford & Associate. Stafford & Associate discovered and manage Sparkles. Best known for her recent hit, 'Let's go to the Mall,' Sparkles is excited to gain more respect as she didn't write, choreograph, or produce her one hit song. She still hasn't released an album. Her single peaked at 199 on the billboard hot 200. Her single went charcoal selling 10 copies at the Wal-Mart music download store. (Sparkles is the alter ego of my friend who is a side schrunchied pony tail, acid wash jean jacket wearing pop star)(we got drunk in a dive bar and the idea was born.)

I don' kno

So I fell asleep in my contacts last night and didn't wash my face... :( its a travesty.... so my eyes are bloodshot and my skin is gross. I'm in a good mood though. I guess that's what matters. I could have clear skin and pearly white eyes and be in a miserable mood. I am currently enjoying a Sabrina the Teenage Witch Marathon. I watched it as a youngster and I am liking it just as much as I did back then. We shall see if anyone wants to hang out with me today. I doubt it. I refuse to take the initiative to start seeking out leads but I will jump at the chance to go somewhere and do something.

miss the city

so I'm home until the 26th of August... good times (home - mom's ex-boyfriends living room) because my classy dorms want to kick people out for 23 days cause they are classy... so I have resigned from my job because I couldn't have the time off so hopefully I will still have a job when I get back into Manhattan (on the 26th) (class starts the 27th). I'm taking 21 credits in the fall (I'm begging for misery) but its all good. I'm sure I will do fine. But as for NOW, I am upstate and bored. I need air-conditioning for my delicate skin... the lack thereof is making me break out and with my low self-esteem, this is not kosher (I am not Jewish, but if I was I would wear lots of deodorant, not wear a wig or hat, and shower daily with a clothing style that doesn't scream conformity to my people)... I worked at H&M last summer and bus loads of grumpy Hasidim with funky wigs, denim skirts, cheap perfume, and striped shirts plagued my summer by the bus load with their B.O. and uncheery disposition with their many children, unsigned credit cards, lack of proper ID, and general loathing of others. But I'm sure that some are nice... I'm not racist, just honest in my opinion... what a rant (I feel like Mel Gibson) ... so I saw No Reservations last night and I just want to say... 'Raising Helen 2: Let's phone it In.' It was full of cliches, lack of chemistry between all of the leads... and they all looked so bored. I also saw 'bug' and let me say this.... Ashley Judd, Honey... why? Keep your clothes on please... and say no to movies where your not a poor (rich or confused) white woman being given advice from Morgan Freeman... Your 'indy-ness' isn't cutting it... do a romantic comedy or just something slightly less eeewwww... I saw the last one you did too... stop the indies... your not Joseph Gordon Levitt... stay tuned for another rant.... ttyl if I get bored